Saturday, May 20, 2017

Bouncing Off the Walls


I have not written in a while and it has been for to reason.

1)  I have been so busy and tired. My schedule is all over the place right now.
2) My anxiety will not let me sit and do one thing. It took me like an hour to do something that would normally take me half an hour.

I mean my anxiety is to the point I feel I am bouncing off the walls but I am not a pleasant person to be around. If I am not left alone to be all over the place, I am unhappy (how crazy is that?). Last night I had a girl’s night. It was fun I had some wine, jello shots, wine, and a few more jello shots. I got home around midnight (now keep in mind yesterday was Friday so I was up and out the door by 6:30). I was so tired I went straight to bed (I never do that). So I thought I would be taking today slow…..Lies!!

I woke up at 7:30ish (I accept I don’t know how to sleep in anymore) and by 8:30 I was doing school work. By 11:30 I was done with school work, and so wired, so I started laundry and watching Netflix’s. It all went downhill from there; I filled out my FASFA, wrote a blog post (and everything that goes with a blog post),posted a guest post, went through my emails, tried to play a hidden object game, cleaned the bathroom, rearranged the freezer, clean some of the refrigerator, folded and put away the laundry, cleaned some of my room, and planned a few weeks worth of social media content.

Side note: I gave up caffeine over a week ago. WTF?!

I feel like I cannot just sit still and in some ways this is great (I am getting stuff done), but in other ways, I don’t like this. I could not do yoga today because I wanted to be moving so that slow flow was not working. I also do not know how I am going to to do “nothing” tomorrow if I cannot be still and focus. I have never been so excited to go to the doctor in my life (next week cannot get here fast enough). 

Needless to say, the 30-day self-discovery is on hold until I get myself together. 

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